My dad had a blood test today, and I needed to stay home because someone was going to be by here, so my sister took him on her own.  She seems to have kept him for a while, since it is now 5 hours after the appointment time and about 4 hours after she should have got him home.  I wish that she would learn to call and let me know when he is going to hang out with them, but still…  It is amazing how relaxing it can be to have some time alone.

It’s not that I don’t love my dad, as mom always pointed out if I did not I’d have run the first time he threw something at me, but it is nice to get a break occasionally where I know that he’s with someone that will keep an eye on him and let me know if anything happens.  Leaves me free to actually relax, I mean really relax.  Able to not worry about anything, such as if my dad’s going to have a heart attack or stroke at any second and I might miss the warning signs.

Anyone that has never experienced that kind of stress has no idea what it’s like, and trust me, you don’t want to know – you really don’t want to know what it’s like to live with that kind of stress 24-7-365.  It’s no wonder my hair is thin (and so was mom’s), stress and poor nutrition are, from what I have heard, reflected in the hair’s condition.

But, I am able to relax at the moment, and am taking advantage of that luxury by catching up on some cleaning.  I’d sleep, but I’m a bit too tensed for that – laying with nothing to think about would send my thinking to bad scenarios and I don’t need that.  So, instead I am cleaning the living room and doing laundry and washing dishes and watching reruns of Burn Notice.